|| What is your absolute favorite way to spend your time? What's something that relaxes you? With your art, what's something you want to improve?|
Drawing! Writing! But mostly drawing. That’s the answer to both of the first questions. Drawing is my favourite way to spend time, and it relaxes me. I love to draw, which is the great tragedy of not being happy with what I produce. It’s the thing that makes me the happiest, which is why it hits the hardest when it’s the thing that’s attacked. “You don’t do anything of value, you just sit around drawing monster babies!” Monster babies make me happy… please don’t say they have no value… they have value to me…
And I’m telling you, I want to improve literally everything about my art, Anon. The more I look at it the more I hate everything about it. The faces are cartoony and samefaced, the eyes are goofy, there’s too much detail literally everywhere that intense detail doesn’t matter. There are some pieces I’m really proud of but then like everything else after that feels like a fucking disaster. I just don’t like my style, and I don’t feel like anatomy classes will help that.
Plus part of the problem is that I’m insatiably petty. I am! I’m petty! I’m so jealous of literally everyone else’s art style, especially people who know how to do art digitally. I see some people who do art digitally and I’m like, I’m at least that good in practice! My style is as good as theirs, comparatively! So why can’t I get the hang of this?! What is wrong with me that digital art is so hard for me to make look even decent? Practice makes perfect or what have you, but I’ve been practicing for years and years and years and there are still people 2/3 my age on here who blow me out of the water, art-wise, on a daily basis.
I dunno. It’s tiring, Anon. It’s frustrating and tiring and sometimes even the most optimistic of us get irreparably disheartened.